How Am I Doing?

Thanks for the prayers everyone. I appreciate and need them so much.

You never really know how much you love someone until they are gone. Daily I am reminded of this. I keep finding what I call treasures; gifts and cards from her for all different occasions over the years. The daily crying has turned into moments of crying. There are times when I cannot believe what has happened, and other times it is crystal clear what has taken place. Daily obligations propel me into activity, but there are constant reminders. I can tell you that God has a plan and that she is in heaven. We should rejoice in that. I know it is true. On paper it all sounds wonderful. However there is the emotional side of it. The side that also knows that she will not be here for Thanksgiving dinner, for Christmas day, and for her daughters 2nd birthday. The pain can be very intense. I have forced myself not to dwell on it because nothing can change the situation. The days are easy...the moments are hard. I have to do laundry and meals, and take my son to swim lessons. All these things fill a day and the time passes on.

I have lots of support from wonderful family and friends, like you. People want to help so bad, but truthfully all anyone can do is pray. Pray that we don't succumb to the grief, that we can sleep through the night, and help support her husband and daughter.

Thoughts of Comfort

I was introduced to this jeweler by a friend who went to Texas. The description of this piece, by James Avery, is very fitting for all of us who miss Guenevere:

This medallion is a simple reminder that it is only through God's grace that we are given his victory over things in our life which hurtfully beset us. Whether it is the sudden loss of a loved one, devastation, disease, affliction or any other adversity, we are given His comforting promise to be with us, and to ease our hearts of a terrible burden, which if it were not for His mercy and grace, would be unbearable.

Dwell on this

"I don't think of all the misery, but of all the beauty that still remains."

Anne Frank

Encouraging Art

Phillipians 4:8 lists what to meditate on, including things that are lovely. This is especially helpful during times of sadness and grief. 

This artist, Kelly Rae Roberts,  has a gentle touch in subject and color choice. You can find her here:

http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=25495089 

Two Months Ago

Two months ago today, my lovely sister passed. Oh the sorrow! I was blessed to find a note she wrote to me when she was little, probably 8 or 9 years old. I hope I thanked her properly. She wrote it on a sheet of notebook paper in blue marker. I will type it how she wrote it:

Dear Veronica,

I cleaned your side of the room for you. And mopped the Floor, under yo ur bed For you Just to show my Appreciation For you Alaways Being There (In my room) When I needed you.

Your Welcome,

Guen

Our Irish Angel

Note the red hair and the shamrocks! She wore lots of robes when she got sick. Her new robe is the best...no more sickness.